It’s Friday.. Mike worked the overnight and is working the overnight again tonight. I am feeling a lot of pressure, almost enitrely from myself to find more work. The market has gotten significantly drier here in Seattle for the type of work that I do. RHIC has really been no help. I am looking but no luck so far. I have to keep telling myself not to be anxious that it is more counterproductive than anything. Between my savings and Mikes income we are fine. I guess since I am the one that handles all of the finances and pays the bills that that makes me more aware of financial obligations than Mike and just adds to my stress level. I definately wouldn’t want Mike to handle these for even a short while as he is not good at all when it comes to money managment and such, I would be even more stressed not knowing if the bills were paid. I am hopeful, I see this as an oppurtunity to learn new skills, I’ve been meaning to learn Visual Basic and Python. Perhaps taking my career in a whole new direction. I think it’s just a matter of discipline and organizing my time.

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wierd but hopeful

I love overcast grey Seattle Sundays. There’s something about the moodiness of the air, Mike sleeping on the sofa, and a fresh cup of coffee. I booked Dad’s flight out here from Mobile. I’m looking forward to it. I just purchased 6 months of Live Journal. I’ve got some really BIG plans. I spoke with Bob, our landlord. He is the nicest landlord I’ve ever had. Our lease is up and we will be signing a new one. Our rent is only going up 10.00, to 900.00 a month. Pretty good for a 2 bed 2 bath with covered parking in Seattle. I just spoke with mom, to thank her for the Corned Beef recipe.. the kids were all acting up. more later.

tired but playful… long day, I had to work.. sortof. I got there but was locked out, stupid people. I came home, napped and kept repeating how stupid people can be, so much for being positive, except that I am positive there are a lot of stupid people in the world. rant ended night

What did I do today? I’m fading into an oblivious movement from one end of the day to the other. I know I spoke with a few people on the phone about work about stuff about nothing in particular. I spoke with Dad, he’s coming out at the end of the month. I made dinner, I read my email and newsgroups, I checked my Tarot I wrote a whole poop-load of ideas of code of doodles.

I do remember speaking with Kimster yesterday. Sassy-cat my “New England kitty” that she has taken care of since I moved out West died in December, he was really old, @17-18. She seems to be doing well, Hi Kim. She caught me up on all of our “old circle of friends”. Rachel’s moved to San Francisco and dumped her younger though still very sexy with clothes on husband. Pasha lives in one of the smaller hill towns in MA. There really isn’t much happening there but it is quiet and stable, and very beautiful in the Fall. Well it IS 2:30am I am going to get going to bed. More tomorrow..

Mike had to work today 7-3pm so I had the house to myself, which was really kind of nice. I cleaned and straightened. I dove into the closet of doom and organized a bunch more of the boxes that are in there. I think I may have everything sorted and labeled by the time we actually move out of here. In the process of all of this cleaning I found my 2 decks of Tarot cards that have been missing in action for almost what seems like a year now. I was very pleasantly suprised.

On another note I sorted through the loose pictures to find some for when I send stuff to Dad on Monday. He called this afternoon and we spoke for awhile. I spoke with his wife Phyliss. I like her. She has a very Southern accent which installs trust. It looks like he is going to be coming up here to Seattle to visit towards the end of the month. this will be a nice thing. Picked up Michael and watched some TV. Now I’m playing on the computer and looking forward to watching the news and going to bed afterwards. Tomorrow, we are having lunch at the Pig n Whistle with Mathew and then we are having Mandy and Jason over for dinner and Queer as Folk. More tomorrow night.

Scanned a lot of the images that Dad sent me. tomorrow I have to get the film develped and sent off to him. I will give him a call as well and invite him to come out here to Seattle. I got a new Mac yesterday. It is an older Powercomputing mac clone, 603 chip. It is much faster than the PM 7100/80 G3 that I was using. I still lust, if that’s possible, after a new dual processor G4. At 3400 a clip that ain’t happening soon. I’m getting sleepy so that’s all for now.

A package from Dad

I got a package from dad today. It was a box full of pictures, old legal papers regarding my birth and adoption. newspaper clippings of my mom’s death and other interesting things. I really enjoyed looking at some of the stuff. There were current pictures of my father now, at 61 years old. spoke with him a few times today. It is really nice to be building a relationship with him for the first time. I also spoke with Karen today. She and Madisyn are doing well. My father was talking about coming out here to visit with me and Mike. That would be so cool to finally get to meet him and that he is willing to come out here speaks volumes to me. No one in my family is willing to come to Seattle. Mike just headed into the other room to lay on the sofa, and fall asleep. the cats all followed him out there. I may be paranoid but I think they blame me for the earthquake. They won’t come near me since the quake. the rats on the other hand LOVE me! Well enough of this entry.. I am tired and heading to bed. More tomorrow.

I got a pack of really good emails this morning from Senators Murray, and Cantwell as well as Jay Inslee, I had written to the Senators and my Representative because the whole Napster thing has got me fired up. I also got really nice email from Mark, of Stumble.com. I am still waiting on my package from Dad to get here. I expect for it to arrive today. I promise no more emotional spillage will occur on this blog though. More later my coffee hasn’t kicked in yet …I’m still sleepy.

I woke up really early this morning .. I haven’t been sleeping well lately.. last night I did. Mike left the house for work around 10:20 ish. at about 10:55 there was a loud boom and then the room started shaking, EARTHQUAKE. Having lived in California for as many years as I have normally this wouldn’t bother me, however, this one just kept getting bigger and more violent. The cats were running back and forth from the bedroom to the livingroom. The fishtank was slashing water all over the place. Pictures started falling off of the walls a few things fell off of the curio case and broke on the floor. The TV feel out of the entertainment center. Well it finally stopped. That was a big one, it turns out it was a 6.8 which is a large earthquake for this part of the country. Everyone is fine, the cats and ratties are still a bit freaked out but they are starting to come out and explore.

I spoke with Dad today (and Sunday) we had a really nice conversation. I was able to come-out to him, which isn’t a big deal but is important to me. He is totally ok with it.We spoke some more in a sort of catchup and get to know you kind of way. I’m really looking forward to getting his package in the mail. I am also looking forward to meeting him and Terry in the Summertime. I am still looking for work, but I am feeling more confident that I will find something soon. I am a little scared about returning to work, it feels like it has been so long since I’ve worked a “permanent” job. Oh well, it is a good thing. I’m going to take more pictures tomrorow and then get them developed and sent off to Dad. I love saying that I have a Dad. more later.