I’ve been noticing more and more the things that used to upset, bother, rile me up or even piss me off no longer have a draconian and sin inducing effect on me anymore. I’m getting old. It’s not an accomplishment that I’ve earned its one that comes with breathing. In my 20’s and 30’s other drivers gave me deep insight into the mindset of mass murders. My lack of patience and frequent cursing was an almost weekly conversation at Confession with my Priest. At some point venial sins commited over and over begin to resemble family members more than behavior to be restrained. Now that I am well into my 50’s I’m Blessed in so many more ways than I was as a youth. It’s interesting to see how frequently the Bible talks about the folly of youth and how with age comes wisdom and understanding. Grace is a gift we are given almost continuously it is strength unmerited and freedom unearned.
When I first noticed this I began to become concerned that I was not being compassionate, empathetic anti-social. Nothing could be further from the truth. I care more deeply as I get older but not in the way I did when I was younger. I look to the longer term. if you’re making choices that aren’t healthy I’m less inclined at this point to correct you directly and more inclined to suggest, pray and trust. My Will imposed on you is of no use to the lesson God is trying to teach you. I have learned God knows better how, when and where. He doesn’t need my help getting you to a closer relationship with Him.
These are just some of the thoughts playing around in my head tonight. I wanted to get them online to see what You (dear reader) have noticed in your lives and walks with God about getting older. Please comment and share, lets have a conversation.