Home Sick

I’ve been home sick the last couple of days.  With being sick its brought me kind of down.  So much stuff in my head.  I want more out of life than the day to day, it feels so lacking.  I used to feel purpose even when things were difficult but now, things are stable and moving forward like I had always wanted them to and yet there is very little sense of fulfillment in my life.  Granted I don’t have a significant other in my life.  I have Mike and I appreciate him, but like I tell everyone he is a friend and not my other.  Sorry to be such a downer.  These are all just growing pains or middle-age pains.  I think I know why people have children.  Having a child really takes you out of yourself and gives you a reason a purpose.  At least I think that is one of the reasons.  I will be going to work tomorrow and then working out after work.  I do genuinely miss working now after work.  School begins this coming Monday.  I am looking forward to it.  I will be taking two classes this Fall, Typography for the Web and a Visual Basic Programming course.  I really must throw off this malaise that try’s to cover me from time to time.


Stevie Nicks – Trouble in Shangri-La – Fall From Grace

Author: Ken Craig-Saunders

Born in New York, Educated in the Berkshires, Became an adult in CA and found my Soul in Seattle. I'm a bearish middle aged, happy man who lives w my husbear in the OC.