Conscious Catholicism

So the week was a long one. I had all of my regular dutys at work along with my team known as the a-team retreat at the U of Washington today. I was on the committee and really enjoyed the process of helping to organize and put this all together. I learned a few things about myself in the process. I learned that I prefer to lead by allowing others to do what they do best and inspire by keeping things on track. I learned that I can be a good artist if I try. I learned that I really like working for the city and in particular for the legislative department. I feel almost like my work has some meaning beyond just what it is. I got home after going for a few beers with a few folks from work and just have this real sense of contentment with were I’m at. I’ve been upset about a few things really mostly about old issues that came up recently. I saw a picture of an ex-friend in L.A. and it really brought up a bunch of the unresolved stuff. This person who was my best friend for many years. Someone I really deeply trusted, over a phone call told me that he would rather I didn’t call him anymore and basically didn’t want to have anything to do with me. I have let go but the pain is still there and a bit of the anger as well. The years since have brought an understanding of why he did what he. The years haven’t brought me to were thinking about it doesn’t hurt anymore. When I think of him now my mind flashes scenes from Death Become Her. I of course am the far more beautiful actress Goldie Hawn and he is the the character played by Meryl Streep, talented but not as dazzling as me. All this to say that this week has been an interesting one and I’m happy for it.


Born in New York, Educated in the Berkshires, Became an adult in CA and found my Soul in Seattle. I'm a bearish middle aged, happy man who lives w my husbear in the OC.