I’ve had this ongoing thought that just really congealed for me this morning.  I’ve been treating my life like its over now that I’m past 40.  40 was traumatic for me.  I don’t know why it just was.  I think I had this mean review of like oh god I’m half way through my life and what have I done?  what have I accomplished?  anyway I’m 42 now and the though returned except this morning I answered back.  I’m still young but old enough to pause before making some fool choice that in my 20’s I wouldn’t have even hesitated to make.