Conscious Catholicism

I had an interesting night.  I went to see Harry Potter at the Seattle Center on the IMAX screen no less. It was truly breath-taking, the screen and the sound that is.  The movie itself was ok.  The thing that I came away from was a real sense of lonliness.  I’m feeling lonely.  I have a few friends and many more aquaintences, bar friends.  If we see each other we say hi but thats about it.  No calling to hangout or anything like that.  I don’t really want a boyfriend most of the time and then sometimes I do.  I couldn’t really tell you anything about him except that he must be masculine and not queeny.  I don’t dislike queeny guys I just don’t sleep with them.  I mostly don’t want one because I feel like such a weird freak most of the time and don’t want anyone else to have to deal with it.  It makes me sad really, this is the only time we have on the planet why not make the most of it and yet I feel stuck socially, sexually in most ways really.  Well enough anaylzing, time for bed.  I’m on vacation all this coming week.  Yeah!!


Born in New York, Educated in the Berkshires, Became an adult in CA and found my Soul in Seattle. I'm a bearish middle aged, happy man who lives w my husbear in the OC.