yesterday I went to the barbeque, it was really wierd. I go and like no one said hello. T and his friend were there, he always acts so weird when there together. M has even commented on how T gets wierd when F is around. Anyway, it wasn’t very pleasant and then we went home I cooked and M was mad at me for something I yelled at him to shutup while I was cooking. “He was like what are you going to hit me.” Well he finally shutup and left the kitchen, which was a good thing because he was annoying as hell. I finished cooking, we ate and watched tv. I went to bed after that. I’m looking forward to going home.
I’m feeling somewhat lonely these days. I have friends but theres just something missing. I don’t have a bf and maybe thats the problem. I want to feel needed and appreciated and I don’t.
I need to make changes in my life, living on my own is only part of it. Creating the space for a bf is part of it. I’m in a pretty bad funk.