I realize after reading the last few entries how grumpy and unhappy I must sound. I think that its true that I really need to make some changes for the better. Money has been the source of tremendous stress lately and I am more determined than ever to make it a non-issue. Once I start working again things will be just fine. When I got laid off last June my income contribution dropped close to 2,000 a month. So for the last year I have had to juggle car payments, rent, food and everything else on 2,000 less per month. Its not easy, especially when you are doing this on your own. Mike of course contributes, his money is my money is his money which has always worked well for us. He doesn’t manage the money though, I do, which makes it feel like I’m alone in handling this.

I’ve contemplated moving into my own place, but I’m ambivalent about the whole idea. Ambivalent of course except when there are money fires to put out or some other issue, usually revolving around cleaning comes up. I have so much to be thankful for money is after all only money and everything always works out in the end.

So in order to not be such a downer I’m really going to make an effort to post happy news and good things, not that I’m avoiding the unpleasant experiences in life, just that they are only way-stones to the more enjoyable experiences.

I’m going to shower shave and get dressed for my dinner get together tonight. Tomorrow I’m just going to relax and stay in. I will probably catchup on some of my reading for school.

This morning stated off with a whole slew of financial “fires”. I absolutely can’t stand US-Bank. What other bank will record checks before deposits if they are deposit on the same day? I don’t know of one other than US-Bank. Well, I’ve done what I can to put these fires out so what is IS.

A friend invited me to go on a dinner train with him tonight. I was looking forward to this yesterday but today I just want to curl up and ignore the world. On the other hand perhaps going out would be the best thing in the world for me right now. I’ll have to drive down to Renton which isn’t so far away as it is tricky. That area of south Seattle gets weird, streets don’t make sense it’s easy to get lost. I’ll leave early just in case.

I spoke with Nana, she wasn’t on nearly as much pain medication today as she was the other day, although she was slurring her words towards the end of our talk. She seems to be doing better, she walked a bit and had most of her tubes removed, a very good thing. She seems ok, with having to have chemo.

I’m going to curl up and watch some TV.