hot hot hot

it’s 11:30 p.m. right now and 61 degrees out still. I have all of the fans going in the house in the vain attempt at getting it comfortable. All of the cats have become large fur lumps scattered about the living-room. The ratties have all stretched out in the respective houses. I’m reading through the newsgroups online that I read.

I spoke with M tonight. It was a really nice conversation. She is one of the few people that really get understand my motivations and reasons for doing things. It’s been a really nice night. I’ve had the house to myself (which I really enjoy sometimes). I puttered about, read some, ate dinner, watched some tv, just hung-out really. Tomorrow night Mike and I are going to go out to some event up on the hill. Its supposed to be really nice out tomorrow. I was thinking of going down to the waterfront and enjoying that or I could walk up to Volunteer park and relax up there. I’ll wait and see how the weather really turns out. It’s so unpredictable here this time of year.

it’s going to be another beautiful day here. It’s going to get up into the 70’s which is very nice. I have two classes today. I need to get another keyboard, one that is ps/2 and mac compatible. The keys on this one stick which makes it really hard to type and very easy to make mistakes.

8:05pm Classes went well today. I spent a good portion of the afternoon putting out financial fires. I ended up with a repayment spreadsheet and having bitten the bullet and called everyone that we owe money too to make arrangements. With a small measure of luck by the end of May we’ll be out from behind the 8-ball. I know I’ve talked about this before but with my income having dropped 2500 a month and our expenses increasing because of our move to downtown, it has been tough. We’ve managed ok up until around Feb then things just sort of all came together in the most unpleasant of ways. I’m very very hopeful that the city job I interviewed for here will workout. I’m just waiting for the phone call.

Wish me luck please and keep in your prayers/thoughts.

There is finally some financial light at the end of the tunnel. I’m a bit relieved. I got a call from the city yesterday that they needed another reference for my reference checks. This is a good sign as it means things have moved along. If there checking my references than they like me yes? they really like me. I hope to hear the words “Ken, we’d like to offer you the information support position with the city of Seattle” by the end of the week. I will have to do withdraws on my classes but thats fine with me. I might be able to stay in 2 of the classes as long as I do the work.

Yesterday it was another beautiful day here. It got into the upper 70’s, sunny with a nice breeze. M sent the both of us Starbucks cards, 50 bucks a piece!! that’s a whole lotta coffee. I met Mike downtown and we had a coffee and decided to have dinner at this great Mexican place up near out apartment. I like the place because it’s “californian mexican” food. There aren’t many real mexican places up here, not like Southern Cali where there everywhere like Starbucks is here. It was some good eats.

Came home and watched the Swan. I noticed that the lavender and the cilantro I planted out on the porch have sent up little shoots in-spite of the squirrels trying to bury there peanuts in the lavender. I have lots of errands to run this morning and then I have a Database class this afternoon.

Fire Alarm

There was some excitement at my building tonight. One of the smoke alarms went off in the building. Everyone was forced to leave while the fireman searched for a fire. It brought to mind that I really need to move the cat carriers into the apartment in the event that there ever is a real fire. The ratties would have to go out on the porch at least there would be some oxygen for them there. Funny how I never really thought about it until confronted with the possibility.

Time to go back to bed.

Last night turned out to be a really interesting night. I went out with a friend of mine. We started off at CC’s, bumped into this musician friend of his. After CC’s we went down to Cuff. The Cuff was a bit odd, there were all these couples in fact I got invited back to my friend G’s house along with this couple from Vancouver. I politely declined the offer, not that they were handsome, its just four ways aren’t my thing. When I got home, I was in a really good space, only to find that one of the cats had pooped on my bed right near my pillows. I was furious, there is nothing that you can do about it after the fact, cats just don’t make the connection. I stripped my bed and got out another blanket. So guess what I’m doing today. They or he also peed on Mikes bed. We are both going to be closing our bedroom doors from now on.

I talked with Mike last night also, I told him that I’ve been thinking (a lot) about moving into my own place. I don’t think he understands the reasons behind it. I get that he is somehow personalizing it and making it about him when in truth it isn’t at all. I’m frustrated at making choices for the both of us. That is a lot of pressure that I don’t want anymore. If I’m living on my own my choices and decisions are my own they only affect me, not him not the cats just me. It felt really good to be able to be upfront about it. I’ve been reticent in telling him for fear that he wouldn’t understand. Well it’s time to go wash the comforters, fun.

I realize after reading the last few entries how grumpy and unhappy I must sound. I think that its true that I really need to make some changes for the better. Money has been the source of tremendous stress lately and I am more determined than ever to make it a non-issue. Once I start working again things will be just fine. When I got laid off last June my income contribution dropped close to 2,000 a month. So for the last year I have had to juggle car payments, rent, food and everything else on 2,000 less per month. Its not easy, especially when you are doing this on your own. Mike of course contributes, his money is my money is his money which has always worked well for us. He doesn’t manage the money though, I do, which makes it feel like I’m alone in handling this.

I’ve contemplated moving into my own place, but I’m ambivalent about the whole idea. Ambivalent of course except when there are money fires to put out or some other issue, usually revolving around cleaning comes up. I have so much to be thankful for money is after all only money and everything always works out in the end.

So in order to not be such a downer I’m really going to make an effort to post happy news and good things, not that I’m avoiding the unpleasant experiences in life, just that they are only way-stones to the more enjoyable experiences.

I’m going to shower shave and get dressed for my dinner get together tonight. Tomorrow I’m just going to relax and stay in. I will probably catchup on some of my reading for school.

This morning stated off with a whole slew of financial “fires”. I absolutely can’t stand US-Bank. What other bank will record checks before deposits if they are deposit on the same day? I don’t know of one other than US-Bank. Well, I’ve done what I can to put these fires out so what is IS.

A friend invited me to go on a dinner train with him tonight. I was looking forward to this yesterday but today I just want to curl up and ignore the world. On the other hand perhaps going out would be the best thing in the world for me right now. I’ll have to drive down to Renton which isn’t so far away as it is tricky. That area of south Seattle gets weird, streets don’t make sense it’s easy to get lost. I’ll leave early just in case.

I spoke with Nana, she wasn’t on nearly as much pain medication today as she was the other day, although she was slurring her words towards the end of our talk. She seems to be doing better, she walked a bit and had most of her tubes removed, a very good thing. She seems ok, with having to have chemo.

I’m going to curl up and watch some TV.

its Thursday, I have my interview this morning. I’m sort of nervous. I really would like this job and I get nervous when I want something and theres the possibility of not getting it. The morning has already shaped up to be an interesting one. My nana came through her colon cancer surgury fine, according to my dad. She was pretty dopey when I talked with her.

1:38pm – The interview went really well. I stopped and grabbed myself a coffee afterwards. The only other good piece of news that I wanted to report was that Mikes boss is moving. She has been an anooying thorn for too long. I can’t say I’m unhappy to see her go.

school was really good today. I’m feeling a bit lighter today than I have in awhile. Someone paid me a compliment, noticing that I’ve lost weight, woo hoo for me. I notice when I walk past shop windows and see my reflection, I’m less of what I dont want and more of what I do. I went and got my hair cut today which only adds to my alure, LOL. I so want to skip out on class tomorrow but I have an assignment to turn in and the teacher is kind of a fussy-button. Well, I just wanted to get something down on LJ. Did you know male escorts in NYC get upwards of 1200 a night, damn to be young pretty and even more hung. A female friend of mine does the escort thing, shes been all over the world with it, which I guess shows that boobs and a pretty face will get you just as far as the aformentioned youth beauty and well hung endowment.

A few bad notes today

I got a call from my dad today. His wife, my nana was diagnosed this morning with colon cancer. According to my dad the doctor said that based on the type and size shes had it for about 10 years. She seems in good sprits, I spoke with her this afternoon. They are operating on her tomorrow so I would ask if you think of it, send your prayers and good thoughts. I also got a call from my uncle, his wife’s uncles, who I was friends with died a few months ago. He was part of the oldest gay couple I knew. He and his partner had been together for almost 35 years. Pretty amazing! Just as an aside about gay marriage, Dick had to name my aunt and her son power of attorney in order to carry out his wishes to be cremated, even though Dick and Vince had been together as long as they had been. That’s stupid !!