I didn’t sleep very well at all last night. It was the third night in a row that I had disturbing dreams. Theres too much going on in my head right now. I feel like I have no sense of direction or accomplishment. I’m just floating on the river of life grabbing whatever gets close enough to give my life some meaning. I feel like shit. I think the answer is discipline and focus. That sounds like something my mom would have said when I was growing up. Fuck the analysis I feel like shit and I don’t want to.