anyone have any thoughts on jealousy? where does it come from, why do we experience it. I think it’s based in the fear of losing something or someone in our lives, and relates back to our own feelings of self-worth. If I feel good about myself, I know that I don’t need others to complete me then I’m not going to be experience jealousy. If I’m feeling insecure and look to another to make me feel complete or whole then anytime that other is in the spotlight, I’m going to feel the shade so to speak.

I slept later than I wanted to today. I packed some this morning, a few boxes and threw away a whole bunch of stuff. I still have to finish up the computer room, the livingroom/diningroom and my bathroom. Mike is in responsible for his bathroom and the kitchen. That’s fair considering I did most of the computer room, livingroom and diningroom. I’m definately sensing that I’m a bit tense about the moving now that we are in the homestretch. Starting new is a bit scary, with all sorts of attendent questions.

I just got the strangest email from someone asking me if I had had a problem with a certain buyer in one of my auctions. I responded back and said that no I hadn’t. Well, it got me to thinking. I ended up contacting Paypal, only to find out that there is little to no protection againest chargebacks. I have to take some responsibility here. I did after all send to an address other than one that was verified by paypal. Well, the long and the short of it is. I did some online investigation and found the phone number for the person to whom I sent the winning auctions item. I also went ahead and closed out my paypal account. I don’t see the point in using paypal if they aren’t going to offer me any protection againest possible fraud. there hasn’t been any fraud at this time, and it was only two other persons that seemed to have problems. I don’t want this to come back and bite me in the ass 2 months down the line.

From now on it’s checks or money orders only.