I need to find work and am having a hell of a time finding anything. I’m registered with several agencies and have been now for many years counting. I’ve applied at all of the usual places, even retail and the like. No ones biting. Things are beginning to look desperate. It is incredibly difficult to for two people to live on one income. I really am at a loss as to what to do. I’m 38, I don’t have a retirement plan and neither does Mike. I’m feeling really lost as to what to do. Our phone got turned off on Tuesday and we won’t have the money to get it back on until sometime in mid-December if that. How am I supposed to find work if prospective employers can’t call me. I’m angry at myself and no one in particular. I’m smart friendly and I have talent when it comes to computers, why am I not working. I’ve thought about going back to school, but I have a defaulted student loan so financing isn’t not an option. Ah, the consequences of youthful stupidity! I’m determined not to ask my family for help. They’ve helped in the past and somehow it seems that I need to do this on my own, besides I’m 38, theres just too much embarrassment involved. Mike has been tremendous in all of this most other relationships that I’ve been in would have come apart at the seams, not Mike, he sees us as a partnership, through good and bad. It isn’t like I don’t do anything. I have a full-time job keeping house, errands, juggling paying the bills, and looking for work. I need to get the bills caught up, I’m going to take Bart (my truck) up to the local used car place to sell. I torn though because what if I need Bart for that next job, then again I need phone service to get that next job. I really am beginning to believe that conservatism is born through the trials of life.

I’ve been sleeping really well with the cooler weather and longer nights. It’s been a challenge financially to balance things on only 1 income. We’ve cut back on the non-essentials for the time being. I’ve had such a difficult time finding more tradinational jobs. I’m determined to create the work if I can’t find it. It’s better that way in the long run anyway. I’m much more comfortabley relying on my self and my own efforts. I have the Melaleuca business and 4Phases, I just need to start marketting them.

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Overwhelming to visitors, this bustling city can seem hard and imposing. With so much going on, there is an axiom that if you visit NY for a day you will see most of what you want; for a week, some of what you want; and if you live there, you will see none of it. It is a city made by people, changed in some small way by everyone who passes through it. Despite what anyone may have ever said about it, New York has shown a tremendous spirit. At their heart, New Yorkers are symbolic of the American Spirit, and have become the poster children for defiance in the face of adversity.

Allow the President to invade a neighboring nation whenever he shall deem it necessary to repel an invasion, and you allow him to do so whenever he may choose to say he deems it necessary for such purpose — and you allow him to make war at pleasure. Study to see if you can fix any limit to his power in this respect, after you have given him so much as you propose. If, to-day, he should choose to say he thinks it necessary to invade Canada, to prevent the British from invading us, how could you stop him? You may say to him, “I see no probability of the British invading us” but he will say to you “be silent; I see it, if you don’t.”

–Abraham Lincoln