Conscious Catholicism

I’ve had a really weird day so far. Last night I had a bunch of dreams about living in California and about William (an old friend). I woke up this morning from the dreams and had that “dream hangover” feeling where even though the dream is over, you just can’t shake the overall feeling of the dream. I really think that the dreams were about feelings of unresolved regret that I have. To make matters even more interesting, I spoke with my friend Hope from California on the phone and she brought up that she had spoken to Ed, who was one of my longer term boyfriends when I lived there. He was a despicable person, mean, shallow, cruel and a mental mess of a human being. This of course doesn’t say much about my state of mind at the time, but then I think most people have that one absolutely shifty relationship that hopefully teaches them what a relationship SHOULD NEVER BE, well Ed Hunter was mine. Anyway, I was talking with Hope who also knew Ed and she was telling me that she spoke with him about 3 weeks ago. I came up because I had called him and wished him well on his birthday, he has stopped tweaking, stopped drinking and supposedly has gotten his life together. Good for Him I say, I always like to hear that someone who’s life was so out of control IS NOW in control. Anyway, it was weird hearing about him the same day that I had just had dreams about one of the other significant relationships in my life at that time. I needed to mention it just because.


Born in New York, Educated in the Berkshires, Became an adult in CA and found my Soul in Seattle. I'm a bearish middle aged, happy man who lives w my husbear in the OC.