Muggy is one of my least favorite weather conditions to live in. It was muggy and uncomfortable here in North Seattle. The good part of the muggy business is that I was inspired to make something cool and satifying for dinner so I made a fabulous (even if I do say so myself) green salad with braised shredded chicken breasts. I also had a hankering for tom kah kai (Thai lemon chicken coconut soup), and so I made up a batch using my friend Kim’s chilis (oh so spicy). Mike liked it I liked it even the ratties got in on the leftover rice action. Ratties love rice and mine all love cukes also. Ok I’m starting to babble now so it’s time to head to bed. It’s only 10:49 must be all of that mugginess again.

There are so many cool hipster Blog sites out there, it’s the new poseur venue. I feel so dull and uninspired, so raw and real, like the Oklahoma cousin in the big city. It’s almost like High School all over again.

It was a talkitive day today, a lot of conversations. That LA entry really was a realization. One of my goals in journalling is to put into words for myself what’s swimming in my awareness and hopefully in the process have a few “aha moments” . It’s cheaper than therapy and more fun. I’m planning to fly to LA next month and stay with Hope most of the time that I’m there. I’ll either rent a car or borrow Hopes to get my stuff out of storage and into the thriftstores.. anyone want an Apple IIGS, with every know manual printed for it? I do have a bunch of things like my journals and sketchpads from 30 years ago, some antiques and such that I want to bring back or ship back here to Seattle. Once thats all done I need to finally switch over my Cali drivers license to a WA and be done with that part and time of my life.

These are some of my goals for the upcoming Quarter.

I want to learn German

I want to learn VB6
As my first project I will create an app that does the Mahobet chart

I want to learn HTML

I am going to make Director this month

I am going to get a part-time job at Borders this month

Mike and I are going to move Downtown in January

I am going to visit back east this fall

I am going to take care of the rest of my things in LA by November 1 of this year

I am going to start tithing 10% of my income because I know that the Universe is unlimited
and this is good for my circulation thinking

I am going to get a new car.

For some reason I started thinking a lot about West Hollywood today. I miss a whole lot of things about living there, interestingly most of them are retail in nature. The weather doesnt’ hold appeal for me as it’s almost always warm and sunny. I like my 4 seasons or at least 3, Fall being the most important to me. Life was much more of a struggle there than anywere I’ve lived before. I think that part of Weho’s appeal for me is that I met a lot of interesting people while I lived there, I grew a lot there and the struggle is something that calls me back as a sort of challenge. Being were I am now in life really changes the whole picture of Weho for me. I am not into the bar/A-list/poseur boy club scene so that holds no value in my estimation. I like places with moody weather, big storms rain, and sunny days too, Weho doesn’t have those, although the weather there is certainly not intolerable. Most of my friends have left Weho, it’s more of a stopping ground for those in there 20’s and early 30’s to kind of experiment and play with there life. Most of my friends have moved on into longterm relationships or babys and familys, moving back east to settle down or up North to communitys that support there more adult lifestyle. I guess in the longer view of things the reason I’m somtimes attracted to moving back, or living there is the lure of places familar and younger, the excitement of life in LA, to see how I would do things differently than I did when I lived there before.

On a similar note, the whole moving bug that I have is a little wierd to me. I Love Love Love litving here in Seattle. You might not know it from reading this journal, but I do. The weather, the feel of the city everything about Seattle blends really well with who I am at this point in my life. I do feel a certain distance from my family, my dad (and Phyliss) my sister (Karen) and my step-mom, although that last one doesn’t make sense to me. I love my mom, but our relationship works better long distance (both physical and emotional). The East coast that overly saturated part of the country where everyone lives piled on top of each other and all paying through the nose for the privilige. I dont’ understand the desire to be “closer to my family” when I can call them just as easily now as visit if I lived next door. Moving back east isn’t (logically) going to bring me any closer to my family (emotionally). I like were I am, with Mike the cats and our ratties. San Fran is too too expensive and becoming more and more like LA all the time. I think the visiting thing is a good thing, but the moving thing for right now anyway isn’t going to happen. I like having space and not being piled on top of one another.

Just some guy. That’s all he’ll be to me but there are a whole lot of just some guys and just some girls to a whole lot of people out there. I woke up this morning, it’s AM here, got my coffee like usually petted the cats like usual and plopped myself down in front of my computer to read my e-mail, just some sites, and start my day. There is nothing unusual in my routine nothing to indicate that a stranger Bill Biggart, a photographer, will have any affect on my day whatsoever. I check my e-mail to find there are few jobs, too many people for them. Another e-mail is more inspirational, it’s my positive thought for the day. There is another e-mail, now printing out on the computer, cause I have it setup that way, it’s a job lead. All job leads print out automatically. Tobey, my cat has been sitting on my lap, as custom, since I plopped into my chair with my first cup of coffee. Tobey has now decided that his morning greeting is over, he gets up and heads towards the living room and I imagine his favorite spot on the sofa. There is a lead off of one of the sites I visit ever morning, it’s headline reads, The most amazing Sept 11th pictures you might ever see, I hesitate momentarily, I’m resistant to violent images, I’ve seen so many of that day, we all have that for a moment I mentally refuse to take another one in. For reasons that are too deep to ponder at 7 in the morning I move on to the article. It’s a good read, and very very sad, so sad in fact that I find myself crying not hysterical crying, just a light though deep grieving for humanity kind of crying. 7 in the morning and some guy, some guy I don’t know who died in Sept 11th attacks doing what he loved to do in life has made me cry. I start ponder this whole rather unusual situation, a grown man crying for someone I’ve never met, will never meet all because of that horrible event. There are a lot of just some guys out there for all of us, in some way he is everyone I care about, which is why I cried. He is an undertone of relief, selfish as it may be, thanking god that it was me there that day, feeling guilty that I was here in Seattle, 3000 miles away from that horrible day. He is a reminder almost a year later now, that this event is still so new even after a year, that there isn’t even a scar yet to show for it. The rage I feel towards ideologies that allow this type of thing from happening. The sorrow for the thousands of familys that have to deal with this directly, the millions more that didn’t lose a loved one that day, but have to deal with it anyway. Tobey is meowing now, it’s part of the morning ritual he’s returned to the computer room to stake claim to my lap once more. He reminds me that it is time to move forward with my day, that I can’t wrap this up all nice and neat, there isn’t closure to Sept. 11th yet for me and I have just some guy to thank for getting me that much closer, thanks Bill Biggart.

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6. Mahayana Buddhism (82%)
7. Bahá’í Faith (81%)
8. New Thought (74%)
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17. Secular Humanism (58%)
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I was reading here and then here and then this resulted:

citys I want to live in at some point

Baltimore, MD
Philadelphia (again)
Boston, MA
New Orleans, LA

cities I can see myself living in:

Key West Florida
Los Angeles, CA
Glendale, CA
Syracuse, NY
Albany, NY
Western MA

States and Citites that I don’t even want to visit let alone live there

Salt Lake City, UT
The MidWest

Places I’ve already lived

New York
The Berkshires
Los Angeles
San Fernando Valley
San Gabriel Valley
New Jersey

I really think that you know when you’ve found the work that you are supposed to be doing, I mean the work that you are built to do, when you find yourself working 12 hour days and still lovin it. I’m feeling like I’m fed everytime I think of new ads, or whenever I get to talk with someone about this Opportunity..I think part of the reason is that it is working with a company that really has a clear Mission Statement, one that truly does want to make the lives of those it touches better. The money doesn’t hurt either. Where else can you make money and earn an income by referring other to products that are going to make there lives more healthy and better off. I am really happy about working for myself. A friend of mine asked me why I keep looking for work outside of my home based business, I told them that if I were to get the job at Adobe or even another contract it is because I like doing computer work, it is more of a hobby just like working in a bookstore would be. There is also the whole growing a business aspect. I’m new with this and so my checks every month aren’t all that large right now. They will be even within the next 2 months so that’s why I’m still looking for other work because I like doing other things and because the money allows me to grow the business that I really like to do.

Things have been really busy lately here at the North End Ranch. I dd have my interview at Adobe, all 3.5 hours of teleconfernce. It was at least interesting a compliment to my abilitys to be asked to interview. I think I did well, but how would I know otherwise. Our anniversary was also last week, we went and had a few cocktails up on the hill. It was nice, a bit internse as one of Mikes particularly nasty ex’s was there. I was very proud of him as he found the courage to confront the guy in a healthy way. It wasn’t mean or anything like that it was mostly just pulling it together to be able to talk with him. I also found out that Mike actuallys reads my livejournal, he was upset about some of the things that I’ve said here. I tried to explain to him that this is my journal and that if he doesn’t want to know don’t read. I love him and like all couples he pisses me off at times there are things that I don’t always like just as I’m sure there are things about me that he doesn’t like. Anyway, it was good to talk about it with him.

That’s pretty much catches up with everything that’s going on here.