I am 53% ADDICTED TO THE INTERNET.
I am pretty addicted, but there is hope. I think I’m just well connected to the internet and technology, but it’s really a start of a drug-like addiction. I must act now! Unplug this computer!
I just spoke with my grandma. Shes 87 and is slowly losing her memory. I imagine that this is a grace in some ways, it was very sad speaking with her, it’s like slowly watching someone you care about moving further and further out of the picture. She was the most important person to me when I was younger, she taught me how to cook, she was glamorous and always together. She was amazing to me. She has outlived 2 husbands and has great grandchildren now. She had lived as a corespondant in the 30’s and early 40’s in Lebannon, so many amazing storys she has still to tell.
I met Mike and some friends after work last night at R’ Place up on the hill. It was fun, we had a few drinks. I had a few more than usual since I wasn’t driving. I always regret this the next day when I have to go to work, because I end up feeling like shit. I always end up smoking to many cigs too!! Well this time was no different, repeat after me, alcohol is a depressant, alcohol is a depressant. There is a reason I’m feeling so blue. I did get cruised by a bunch of guys while we were there, that was a nice little boost.
Upon waking this morning, I just didn’t want to go to work at all, no no no. I wanted to stay home or in bed all day. Mike had gone to work before me as usual, so I had the house to myself, Dexter kept trying to open the door to the bedroom, because the door was closed, that cat hates closed doors, espcially if someone is on the other side.
It looks like Mike and I are going to end up flying after all, god I dread it. I really wish that I hadn’t agreed to go to visit on Xmas. It will be nice once we are there but getting there is the pain in the ass part. Back to work, god it’s only Tuesday.