I’m not in a good space. I’ve been crabby for the last two days. When I’m crabby I run into crabby people and the cycle continues. Having read through some past entrys I’ve been a bit on the down side and I’m sorry for that. I think with everything in the air and I not being were I want its been all grumbles from me. This will change. The move to L.A. is happening in August and I’m happy to know that. There are a million and one little things that need to be planned. How to get the critters down there. Can I even bring cockatiels into California. The only question I have is am I making a big mistake. I’ve been asking myself this now for awhile since the decision was made to move back. Ultimately I think the answer is no. I’ve wanted to move back for a very very long time now and while I’ll be giving up my very steady very well paying job for a non existing one at this point. I will be were I want to be. I moved to Seattle with little less than 600 dollars and truck full of stuff. Everything I have I built on my abilitys and the love of my friends and family. I can do this again and I won’t be alone either. It looks like Mike is going to be coming along. So there it is. Knowing this is my last grey cold wet winter here is a relief. The time will fly by I’m sure. It always does. I’ll be down (maybe with Mike) from March 15th to the 19th scouting around, getting a p.o. box changing my license back to a California one. I feel better having written this down so maybe I’m a bit less crabby now and more borderline happy.

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