So this timeoff that I’ve had has done wonders for my outlook. God why do I put up with so much crap in my life why do any of us. I got it that I need to leave my job. It’s just a completely toxic place and staying there despite this isn’t going to do me any good (aside from the paycheck and benefits). I’ve been plugging in my resume a few places here and there and I am really hopeful that something good will manifest soon. As for home. I have this urge to move to leave seattle and sometimes the west coast altogether. I want more from life the mundane day to day sometimes just sucks. I know I know welcome to life. Every once in awhile I catch a glimpse of myself as if from outside and although I’m mostly please with what is my life, there are definately things that I should change. I don’t want a boyfriend/girlefriend partner whatever. I think I’m too damaged to be comfortable in that. As odd as it is I’m comfortable for now in my living situation. Mike and I have lived together since 98′. This is a long time 8 years. I am convinced that you can never find anyone perfect to live with besides yourself. We have mostly found a way to live with each other without driving each other nuts. I would like to own my own place at some point but for know this is fine. So I’m happy with most of the things in my life except my job which takes up 2/3 of my waking hours. So I go back to work and I’ll give my notice as soon as I find another place to go to. Simple drama-free.

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