I’ve had this ongoing thought that just really congealed for me this morning. I’ve been treating my life like its over now that I’m past 40. 40 was traumatic for me. I don’t know why it just was. I think I had this mean review of like oh god I’m half way through my life and what have I done? what have I accomplished? anyway I’m 42 now and the though returned except this morning I answered back. I’m still young but old enough to pause before making some fool choice that in my 20’s I wouldn’t have even hesitated to make.