Something shifted when my grandmother died. She was the last connection of the oldest connections to this world that I had. The shift was financial. I’ve really struggled up until then and not so much since. Sure things get tight on occasion, like they do for most folks. I’m ok today. I was having a dark doldrums last night, anxious and I couldn’t sleep, feeling depressed and somewhat lonely. I never use to feel lonely. I mostly still don’t. I’m craving sunshine and warmth. I think that’s why I long for LA right about now.