What a week! School is wonderful its great to be back studying and learning new things. Its really nice having my dad here this past week. I think he’s enjoying himself. It is a bit of a different visit this time, he goes off and does his own thing. He’s been exploring downtown and the surrounding area. Today is the last day of school and work for me this week. I’m glad because I wasn’t really counting on working, school and having a houseguest. Its exhausting.
I’m really making an effort to create more emotional space between M and I. Its difficult at best. We have a long history with each other. Its easier sometimes to fall into familar patterns my own and ours. These aren’t necessarily good ones either. On the one hand its easier financially to live with him and on the other lviing with each other stresses me out. There has been a widening gap between how I feel and how he feels. I don’t enjoy living with him less and less, that much I know is true and I think our friendship is suffering because of this. Its really time to honor what I’m feeling, wether anyone else will or not. Its also time to get ready for work and school.