To try and shake the blues I decided to go see LOTR – Return of the King. I really enjoyed it. They did an amazing job visually. There were a few times were I got choked up, and a few points were there was actual humor. I’m glad I went. I’m home now and just got into my sweats. I called Mike and told him that I wouldn’t be picking him up from work to go shopping. The malls are going to be insane, and with the mood I’m already skating around I don’t think it would be a good combination. There will be lots of sales after Xmas, so I told him I would take him then. He can always go on his own if he likes or with someone else.

I’m going to go read for awhile, and I do have my final test to finish up for Unix class. I’ll be turning that in tomorrow and then I’m totally completely done with this quarter.

Now that I’ve got that uncomfortable bit out of the way. I need to think about what I can do for myself, since it’s highly unlikely that I’m going to get the babying that I want. I can

go to the gym
go for a walk
clean the house
read a book
call my agencys for work (more money always makes me happy)
go get a nice coffee
go take some interesting pictures.
go clothes shopping

or realize that I have everything I need in my life right now.

I’m not in a very good mood. It started Saturday night for me. Some plans I had fell thru which was ok, cause other ones came up. I went out with a few friends of mine but every place we’d go I’d bump into people that I didn’t like. It really sucked because there were these blemishes on my evening standing right there. It really just set me in a bad mood. Sunday my mood continued but there was some relief in that I spent the day being lazy, window shopping and having lunch with Mike up on Broadway. Monday my mood returned because there was just so much to do, I felt rushed. The same thing Tuesday except this was more because someone in my life dissapointed me. Today’s Wednesday and I still feel icky. I’m not sure if it’s the weather or things in my life or things not in my life or my upcoming 40th birthday. I know I don’t feel so happy right now and I could really use some babying.