Went to a book reading at Bailey-Coy books up on the Hill. It was really fun. Mike and I went to dinner at one of our favorites on the hill, Charlies. They have the best mozzeralla sticks anywhere. We had coffee at Vivaces before heading home, it was a really pleasant evening. The only downside was that I didn’t order decaf and was up all night.
I realized a lot being up all night. I caught a glimpse of just how much fear is a factor in my decision making these days, not to mention how come I’ve been so crabby and bitchy with everyone. I don’t want to be crabby it just happens, Mike is so wonderful or dense for putting up with me. I think that not working as much as I would like to think it is all good, is really been fucking with my sense of self-esteem.
Science of Mind would teach me that I am fine just the way I am, and that right livelyhood is mine already, the right job is mine and it’s a matter of waking up to this fact. I can see this it’s jut the illusion in front of me that’s the problem.
Well, it’s time for a shower, and then I’m going to head out and run errands, I’ve been keeping up with the gym which is a very good thing, I always feel better after going to the gym.