I've been Purging

I haven’t written in awhile because I’ve been purging. I quit smoking, coffee and alcohol. The smoking is a long term commitment but the coffee and booze are more on the short term. So the short end of this is that my body is doing all sorts of things that I’m not used to, scary things, I got a 2 day fever which cam out of nowhere and left just as quickly. I’ve lost weight despite drinking at least 8 litres of water a day. I won’t even go into a description of the noises my body is making, suffice it to say, they are Southpark funny. I started smoking when I was 13, it was a Marlboro with some friends in the woods. I have quit smoking in the past for long periods of time. When I was with William I quit for the first 2 years of our relationship. Just last year I had quit for more than 8 months. I actually enjoy smoking, really only when I go out with friends or sometimes in the morning with coffee, hence the reason I’m not drinking coffee. The only hard part physically is the first 3 days, at least for me it is. We have an event filled Summer coming upon us so we’ll have to see how things go.

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