Mike did go into work to cover the shift. He asked me for a ride and I told him I wouldn’t because I didn’t support him working tonight. He says that he doesn’t have to work the remainder of the weekend. I’m really trying not to allow this to taint me but it does. It’s just another one of those small things. My mom ask me why I was with Mike? I told her that I was with him because although there are the day to day anoyances there are also the day to day joys and good times. What I didn’t tell her was that I think people are too quick to give up on relationships these days. I Love Michael and although there are a lot of differences in the way we see things, there are also a lot of similaritys and a bond of Love that I honor. I also thnk that I may be guilty of projecting some of my disatisfaction with Life onto Mike. I need to engage myself more in pursuits that are important to me, that stimulate my intellectual side, my sprirtual side. Mike and I will be better for it if I do this if I channel the energy in a more constructive focused way. I will start by using this weekend for creating goals for myself, something that I haven’t done in a very long time. I know one of the things that I want to do is join a gym and start working out after work. I also think that I would like to learn more about nuitrition, vegatarianism. Even just talking about this in this my online journal makes me feel so much better. I think that I will send Mike and email letting him read these entrys and telling him how very much I Love Him.

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